I am so overwhelmed at times with the preparation God is doing in my heart and soul for this trip to Guatemala. I have never been on a mission trip. Never felt called, assumed it would never happen in my lifetime - I could always give and pray for others to go, but there was no way God would call me to leave my family, risk my diabetes in a 3rd world country, go completely out of my comfort zone when I could do so much more here at home. Besides, I have no building skills, and as most mission trips are about building things, repairing things, etc., no one would have any use for someone who barely can wield a hammer!
Well, God had other plans. He started speaking to my heart the day I first learned about La Limonada and the children that are there. I felt such a strong urge to visit and to meet Tita. But, I told God,
I can't trust a place without good medical care. Then a week went by & I was talking to the head of Lemonade International, Bill Cummings, and he said there is an awesome, private hospital very close to where the teams stay. Crap!
But I don't have any skills to offer. Then God revealed to me that all these children need are smiles, love, hugs, and attention. Crap! I have so much of that to spare that I feel I don't know enough people to spread all the love I have inside me.
But, God, I don't like sleeping without my sound machine, my pillow, my bed, my coffee, etc. etc. etc.. Then God said -
"But you will see people who have no homes, no place to lay their heads, and no food to eat, yet they will have more joy than you will know."I am humbled. I am amazed that God finds me worthy to be on this earth, much less to be a part of His plan in La Limonada. When the last of my doubts were falling away, I realized how was I going to raise money for this trip and God said for me to not worry about it. If you know my husband, you know he worries a little about money - plus his job was about to be phased out. I told him I felt so strongly that God wanted me to be there that if I had to ask every person I knew for $1-5 to go, I would do it. Then before I could tell a soul I was in the need for funds, a friend from way back surprised me with a check that covered almost ALL of my trip. Just because. I probably haven't seen her since high school, but we have fortunately reconnected over Facebook & God has blessed me with reconnecting with such a sweet, loving, and unselfish friend who cheers me up & makes me laugh and has allowed me to go on this trip without worrying about money.
I am so excited to see what God has in store for this team. I know without a doubt, He wants me there. I have been praying hard for Him to prepare my heart for this trip. I know part of my heart will be left behind in Guatemala and I am okay with that. I love this country so much already and I want to let every person I meet there to feel some of God's love pouring through me.
God is good. He is perfect, He is the Almighty. I am sure of His plan and have full confidence that no matter what happens in Guatemala, it is His plan for me to be there.